waxing your left forearm

this is the first time i
ever have looked like a woman,
something that deviates beyond lines
and scarves around my neck
always looped too tight, chaffing the skin.
this is the first time i
will forgive my equillibrium
for sloshing around in rebellion
against what I have done to my status quo
you and me, we both came unwanted
and i feel the weight of those years
on the top step, wobbling forward
my face is planted, my face is
overtaking this odd woman,
the only kind of woman
I have ever seen.

Yeah I suck dick she said
with a fag in her mouth, a liar
skinny and tall poking her finger
into some round man's eye
i'm going to shake you off though
get up on that horse
ride into my lame horizon
look back with all these remorses.