"An Ian Curtis wish list is a list of things that you have convinced yourself that you want to have happen, but you know that are never going to happen. But, you've sort of deluded yourself into believing that they're going to happen. So half of your... and then you feel like a total ass about it... like half of your body's completely fooled itself into believing something's happened and half of your body is totally beating yourself up because the other half of the body is fooling itself. So an Ian Curtis wish list is things that would fall into that category… like being crazy into this person.”